Pagluluksa Para Sa Ika-Apat Na Kasawian Sa Pag-Ibig

You are Number Four. I knew it. Sabi ko na nga ba, hindi ikaw ang Michael na kelangan ko. Should’ve Watch my words. Nagkatotoo tuloy. Hindi ikaw ang para sa akin. Sabi nga ng mga nagpapayo sa akin, subukan ko naman daw ang ibang pangalan. Sagot ko, may sumpa sa pangalang ‘yon. Hindi ko rin alam. i fell in love with the name. Sa pag-iisip ko sa halos isang buwang pinagdaanan natin, mas lalo ko lang sinasaktan ang sarili ko. Isang buwan lang? salamat nga’t umabot pa halos ng isang buwan kesa naman isang linggo lang. Nais kong pigilan sa pagtibok ang puso ko dahil kada mararamdaman ko ang pintig nito, tila ba pangalan mu ang naririnig ko… hindi yung Michael, kundi yung isa pa.

Hay. (Hingang malalim) Diversion at Release.

Para akong trapik sa EDSA, di maka-move on!

Internet Stalker, ako yun. Gustuhin ko mang maging masaya, tila ba di na maibabalik ang mga ngiti sa aking labi… dahil sa nabasa kong mensahe mu rin pala iyon sa kanya.

don’t frown, you’d never know who’s falling in love with your smile.

Ayan, lagi na lang akong umiiyak. Nagdadrama. Ano ba ang nararapat na gawin ng taong ika-APAT na beses pa-LANG nabibigo sa pag-ibig? Lumuha. Umiyak. Humagulgol. Muling Isipin at balikan ang mga alaalang kahit kailan ay di na mababalikan. Ayaw mo sa akin. Di ba? Not this time. Parang job interview lang, noh? Tatawanan na lang.

Sa totoo, Haste makes waste.

Tanong: Sinong Pipiliin mo?

A:ang taong ngayon lang dumating at nanggugulo sa buhay mo at wala kang future kasama?

O, B: ang taong halos buong buhay mong kasama at buhay mo na at engaged ka pa sa Fb?

Sagot:

Puro ka-dramahan. Ganyan naman talaga ang buhay. To spice up our lives. Back to basic na naman ako.

Less worries, less stress. more heartache, more unforgettable memories.

Book Review: Dear John by Nicholas Sparks

Characters:

John Tyree
Savannah Lynn Curtis

Plot:

She was a mountain girl, gifted and sweet, raised by attentive parents, with a desire to help those in need; he was a tattooed army grunt, hard around the edges, and largely a stranger to his own home.

They fell in love together almost only a week when he’s home for vacation when she met her at the beach. They confessed their love for each other when she brought him to see the house that they are building for the Hurricane victims. He brought her to special places to eat and walk at the beach while planning on how they’ll keep in touch in spite of the distance between them. When he took a vacation the next year, she introduced him to her parents and the time was so fast yet their days together are only few. They made love, had quarrel, and planned for marriage when he returns.

September 11 bombing had happened and he took another two-year service for the army. Exchange of letters between Savannah and him began to gradually skip a day or two. Neither did she mention how she feels about how she can’t see him because of the incident. When one day, he got a letter from her saying something about breaking up, and that’s how he got hurt so much. His dad got sick and that’s how he began to build friendship with him even though he knows that his father’s passion for coins were the only ones he can talk about well with him. When according to Savannah, his dad is suffering Asperger’s, routinely actions.That makes him feel almost well in spite of his condition. Six weeks after he returned to Germany, his father died. He returned for the funeral and decided to let the attorney sell the house.

He went to Lenoir, deciding to see Savannah again. He found a way to know where she now lives. It’s a ranch with title about “Hope and Horses”. He got to see her again, and she was suprised. He noticed that she now have a wedding ring, and knew that it was Tim, the guy way back before when he met her at the beach in Wilmington. He was a good guy. Maybe a lot better than him. But it was obvious that they still love each other. She asked him to go back the next day to meet her husband, and so he did. He just didn’t expected that he’ll meet him at the hospital. He was diagnosed for Melanoma, a poor guy. John knew that Tim love Savannah so much. That’s why he decided to sell the coin collection of his father to donate and help Tim in his diagnosis, but it has been anonymous to the couple.

As John, behind the darkness, watched Savannah outside the ranch, he saw her look at the full moon so intently like what they promised each other long ago. And that made him feel like they were together again.

Reaction:

This is another book by Nicholas Sparks that made me cry, the last song is the first one of course. I expected them to break up in the end because of what was said in the prologue. And i was proven right during the latter part of the story. It was just so realistic. Time is what was lacking in their relationship, although they keep in touch by writing each other. They haven’t seen each other for years, and so she finds comfort with her friend, who she’s also consoling for the loss of his parents. Tim’s character was not villainous and he played a very nice role in the story. He’s been kind to John when Savannah and John went out together during their days. But John knew that Tim has a special feeling for her even before. Well, all i can say is that she must have waited for him for he truly loves her. I mean, who on Earth will do that?, considering the distance and the war? Ok. It’s really a tearjerker and the story makes me want to read continuously up until the end, although most all of the time it was John who narrates the whole events of the scene. Is he for real? I wanna find someone like him, ok cliche.

I Love It! :-)

Book Review: Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot

Main Characters:

.Elizabeth “Lizzie” Nichols
.Jean-Luc “Luke” de Villiers
.Shari Dennis
.Charles “Chaz” Pendergast the Third
.Andrew “Andy” Marshall

Plot:

Queen of Babble tells the story of young Fashion History “graduate”, Lizzie Nichols. She went to England to reunite with her boyfriend who turns out to be a government fraud, which she doesn’t like. So, she goes away to France to be with her friends, Shari and Chaz. While on her way, she sat by a man whom which she told her experiences with her past boyfriends and the you-know-what thing she wanted back, thinking she’ll never see this stranger anymore. But just as she got off at her stop, this stranger admits that he’s her host, Luke.

Luke turns up to have a girlfriend, Dominique, who spends alot of money for her glams. She helps prepare for the wedding, and as Monsieur de Villiers showed her his vineyard, she gets to like the place, Chateau Mirac. He was praised by Luke’s father on how she loves vintage clothes that’s why look gets to show her to the attic where she then finds a stained long dress that has been wrapped for a hunting rifle. She refurbished it and was glad she did it.

Right before the wedding day happen, the bride, Luke’s cousin Victoria, had a problem with her gown. It got alot of laces, it’s as if she was just covered with laces. Lizzie, who have been heard to be good in sewing, was asked to make it look better. She did her best, but then in the morning when Vicky came, she was so happy that she has found the Givenchi gown and the bride chose this over the other one. It turns out to be that that gown was Luke’s mother’s. And because of that, Luke’s dad and mom became ok again together.

Right after the wedding, when it was time for the band to play, the lead singer was no where to be found, and later then was known who runaway with Luke’s ex-girlfriend. That’s the reason why Lizzie and Luke got to be together.

This story goes like the way Sophie Kinsella’s Can You Keep a Secret?. Both protagonist have met a stranger to whom they tell their life’s secrets. And both ends up being together with the man they met.

My next review will be about Queen of Babble’s sequel, Queen of Babble in The Big City. :-)

Book Review: Can You Keep A Secret by Sophie Kinsella

Emma Corrigan, a marketing assistant at the Panther Cola Company was sent to Scotland to have a meeting with one of their company’s business partner. Wanting to be promoted and make her parents proud of her, she, however, messed up the whole event. When she’s about to go back to London, she was secretly upgraded by the stewardess to take the business class flight. There he sat with a guy whom she thinks is uninterested with her. When suddenly, the plane met a disturbance and was likely to crash. She was panicking so much that she blurted out all her secrets to him, from what had happened on her meeting to her deeply hidden secrets about her sex life with her boyfriend, Connor. All of those things, which she didn’t think will come out, was told to this one guy, whom she thinks, she will never meet ever again.

She’s suprised when she say this man, and was even more suprised when she finds out that this man, Jack Harper, is the owner of the company she’s working for. Every now and then, she is summoned to speak with him. They agreed to keep their secrets together and eventually got even more special to each other. Emma’s boyfriend also works for Panther, and is really excited to meet Jack, wanting to give his best efforts for the company, he is on the Research Department. Emma broke up with him and he is suspecting that she has another man, and he keeps guessing who it is until Jack is interviewed on TV. Who along his interview about Panther’s target market, he got to described and tell the secrets that Emma has told him on the plane. Their relationship was known and everyone in the company verifies if it is really her. Not even in the company, but so as her family and her flatmates have watched the interview. She thinks that all the people in the world already know her secrets. It has brought her alot of stress so she went home early. Jack apologizes, as she wonders how he could have remembered all those things, every detail that she had said to him. And he told her that he ‘was gripped’ by her. They never talked about love but it was the words that meant alot, especially it came from him. He told her that everyone who teases her, he will fire. But that doesn’t end there. Because Emma’s flat mates, Jemimah and Lissy keep on planning how to revenge on Jack. They keep on thinking if he ever has one secret that can ruin him and avenge on what he has done to their friend. Emma asked them to stop but Jemimah didn’t keep her promise and at Lissy’s recital concert, she has brought a tabloid reporter to interview Emma. Jack sees them and walked out when he thinks that Emma’s giving away his secret.

Before the day ended, Jack went back to the auditorium and has forgiven Emma. She told him that she’s not told them why he really is at Scotland that day. And so, he told her even more funny secrets about him and they were together again at the end of the day.

This is a funny romantic novel. Knowing that the protagonist is a trying hard marketing employee who hopes for a promoting, she represents almost all other real life office people. Of course, each of us has secrets which only one or two people know, but there are some who we just wanted to keep to ourselves. Finding true love through honesty and being true to oneself was what happened here in this story. I enjoyed reading it and it took me just about two or three days to finish it. Of course i needed to do my chores first. :-)

Vulnerable

i’m still listening to Secondhand Serenade’s song. It’s in a playlist so i won’t bother to change the way it is played. Alphabetical. Yeah right.

It’s kinda like their other song “Your Call”… Kinda same tune or maybe lyrics.

tell me, tell me
what makes you think
that you are invincible…

I was born to tell
you i love you
isn’t that a song already…

Well, this song relieved me from feeling so hurt. Okay. Maybe not. Sometimes i’m just thinking that this life is just a dream. Ugh… What a foolish thought! Right?

Vulnerable…Impossible..

Okay. That’s enough. It’s still raining now. The weather report said that it’s now a storm. Labuyo is the name.. (Parang Siling Labuyo lang?Haha…)

That’s all folks!
Melody J. Mular
http://www.Twitter.com/KristenMelody

It’s Over

Secondhand Serenade’s It’s Over is what i’m listening to at the moment. I’m not an emo but i can’t help to feel what the song is trying to let me feel.

My tears run downlike
razor blades…
I’m falling apart.
You’re breaking my heart.
It’s not over.
It’s never over.
Why is it over?

Yeah.. Heart break. Still. I think i’ve said for the nth time that i’m so over it! But still, I’M NOT! Especially when everything that i’m turning into reminds me of him.

Take note: EX-Boyfriend no. 2 hurts me the most. I’m hurt not because i still love him BUT because i’m still the one with grudge for him. HE LEFT ME!

(if you can’t understand what i’m saying, please read my other post entitled “Why i Don’t Have A Boyfriend… RIGHT NOW?!)

I still can’t take away the hurt that i’m feeling for him.

I’m left without any notice.
Okay. Maybe someday i might forget about him. I’ll be waiting for that day…. unconsciously.
Haha. Am i now an emo?!

God bless!
Melody J. Mular
http://www.Twitter.com/KristenMelody