Comeback Queen

April 15, 2011
Friday
10:50

Dear Jesus,

It’s been so long. Parang sandali lang pero almost 2 or three months na pala akong hindi ka sinusulatan. I’m so sorry. I have unhealthy spiritual and mental life for those months. And now, i’ve resigned. No work, no pay. Well actually meron pa k0ng makukuhang huling sweldo tomorrow. Bukas ko na lang kukunin xe wala si papa ngay0n. Nasa Jala-jala na dapat ay kasama ako. Ayun. Wala rin. May babayaran pa pala ko kay anne at kay tita eva.

Nung last Saturday, nag-celebrate ng birthday ko. Pre-party. April 9 pa lang kc nun. Thank you po sa enjoyment na you gave us. Mejo marun0ng na rin ako mag-swim and yun.

Lord, when i think – when finally- that i can do something like makabenta sa Turbo nun, you gave much harder things like we were moved to solo. Tz nung i thought ok na sa solo, di naman ako makabenta. Nung nakabenta na ako- after ng coaching with Ms. Val, nagbigay naman ng new script for solo. Pero that’s not a problem anymore xe resigned na nga ko kea i don’t need the script anymore. Tska, old script na uli gamit nila. Aun. Me new trainees last week sila nag-start. Good luck sa kanila. Ayon kay Ms. chely, probi na ung isa– si AJ na Bf ng kapatid ni Irene. For the past 5 months, ano bang naging accomplishments ko? Aun. Sorry po xe once or twice lang yata ako nakapag-tithes. Then, nakabili nga ako ng phone, palpak naman ung isa, kay Morris. Then, mp4. TV. I should find a new job soon. Routine ang buhay dito sa bahay. I don’t wanna feel regretful pero this is just a new phase of my life. Before me, alot of s8 agents have already resigned…

Thanks for the lessons that i learned from my experiences with s8. Mei dapat bauning mga lessons at dapat iwanang mga wrong things like when i learned to drink – learned to love it. The last time was noong March? That’s also when he kissed me– sa cheeks lang naman. It’s a dare and i kissed him too. I’m satisfied that during my final stay in Turbo-solo, he’s been noticing me na. Almost months din yata nya kong hindi pinansin. Ok na un. I just don’t want na mei hndi aq kapalagayang loob sa work. The end.

* hindi ko na makikita si Manong fishball, na chicken ball at kikiam naman talaga ang binibili ko. Si Ate Scramble, na always me toppings akong chocolate chips. Ok. I’ve cried already last friday. A week na pala ang nagdaan. I don’t wanna do it again. OA na. Basta. Thanks Lord and i know you’ve got something better for me. I trust in You. Please help me.

The greatest gift that i got on my birthday ay yung song ni Mama. It made me cry during ng pagkanta niya. I know xa rin.
*at naiiyak na naman ako dahil dun– tears of joy*

ok, i miss her at si papa rin. Parang walang buhay kapag walang kausap sa bahay. Thank you Lord for everything. I’ll be waiting for my new job. Ok?🙂 Amen.

——* Melody J. Mular
11:18

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this is a real-time entry on my journal.

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